It started with counting down the stars of the pure sky while I was camping with some friends in the west desert and ended up with a self reflection that released my soul.
Why did I always believe that I was self-reflecting a lot? Why did I always believe that I was in a direct and honest communication with my self? Why did I always believe that I knew what it was all about? Why did I always believe that I had the answers for everything?
Wait a minute!! Isn’t self reflection the way to throw self-lies out and face the truth? Even if it’s painful? Even if it might need you to admit that you were wrong about so many things?
This is when I realized I was living a big lie believing that I have always been honest with my self and my thoughts while I just wasn’t.
We can fool ourselves for all sorts of reasons. Maybe for the sake of our ego. But mostly it’s because we are simply afraid. For sometimes we are afraid to hope, because hope raises our expectation, and expectation can lead to disappointment.
At this point we start manipulating our own reality. We can persuade, even deceive. We can make others view us in the way we wish to see our selves. We can hide our selfishness with charity, our fear with laughter and our hatred with fake smiles.
For many, sadly, this is not an issue, for the illusion of their lives becomes self-delusion. Just like the one who repeats a lie among people and among him self until he starts to believe it and live it
There are those who cannot see the stains on their souls. Some lack the capacity to look in the glass of introspection, perhaps, and others alter reality without and within.
Those who lack passion; hide from it. Afraid of seeing it become an instrument, a weapon, because otherwise we would be human. We know the full part and the empty part of the glass too well, yet we still cannot talk to our selves about that obvious stain.
Only there, in that place, is the road of redemption, for any of us. Only in facing honestly that image in the glass can we change the reality of who we are. Only in seeing the scars and the stains and the rot can we begin to heal.
*******
As we finally were able to have a fire place in the middle of the camp for some warmth, a discussion came up about how sometimes it takes hours to start a fire and I couldn’t help but stare at the fire and noticing it’s energy that is spreading within each and every member of the group sitting around it.
This fire could burn you if you sit closer to it, but when you keep enough distance it will just keep you warm.
Just like the negative energy you get everyday from different things and different people around you in everyday of your life. It could destroy you if you allow it to get into you, and it could help you if you choose it to.
As I began this energy healing therapy, I realized that denial has no place in self-reflection, and so it is up to a person to admit his errors, to embrace them and to move along in a more positive direction.
I choose to do so. I decided to release my self from all the negative energy I have had in me for such a long time and turn it into a positive one.
SIMPLY BY APPRECHIATING IT!!
Appreciating;
(D) For showing me that friends come and go, and it’s not always your fault.
(M) For showing me how horrible it is to be a selfish person
(O) For showing me that hurting someone’s soul is harder than hurting someone’s body
(M) For showing me how bad it is to be a stubborn person
(A) For showing me what it takes to finally forgive someone.
(R) For showing me how the word sorry could end wars between people.
(H) For showing me that it takes two not one
(S) For showing me how hard it is to be a lonely person
Traffic for allowing me to enjoy my favorite radio programs and enjoy more music during the day.
Corruption for showing me how I care about my country
Poverty for making me be a satisfied person
And Last but not least, “LIFE” for showing me that “You Cant Get Everything You Wish For”
The sunrises, and I am released!!
Why did I always believe that I was self-reflecting a lot? Why did I always believe that I was in a direct and honest communication with my self? Why did I always believe that I knew what it was all about? Why did I always believe that I had the answers for everything?
Wait a minute!! Isn’t self reflection the way to throw self-lies out and face the truth? Even if it’s painful? Even if it might need you to admit that you were wrong about so many things?
This is when I realized I was living a big lie believing that I have always been honest with my self and my thoughts while I just wasn’t.
We can fool ourselves for all sorts of reasons. Maybe for the sake of our ego. But mostly it’s because we are simply afraid. For sometimes we are afraid to hope, because hope raises our expectation, and expectation can lead to disappointment.
At this point we start manipulating our own reality. We can persuade, even deceive. We can make others view us in the way we wish to see our selves. We can hide our selfishness with charity, our fear with laughter and our hatred with fake smiles.
For many, sadly, this is not an issue, for the illusion of their lives becomes self-delusion. Just like the one who repeats a lie among people and among him self until he starts to believe it and live it
There are those who cannot see the stains on their souls. Some lack the capacity to look in the glass of introspection, perhaps, and others alter reality without and within.
Those who lack passion; hide from it. Afraid of seeing it become an instrument, a weapon, because otherwise we would be human. We know the full part and the empty part of the glass too well, yet we still cannot talk to our selves about that obvious stain.
Only there, in that place, is the road of redemption, for any of us. Only in facing honestly that image in the glass can we change the reality of who we are. Only in seeing the scars and the stains and the rot can we begin to heal.
*******
As we finally were able to have a fire place in the middle of the camp for some warmth, a discussion came up about how sometimes it takes hours to start a fire and I couldn’t help but stare at the fire and noticing it’s energy that is spreading within each and every member of the group sitting around it.
This fire could burn you if you sit closer to it, but when you keep enough distance it will just keep you warm.
Just like the negative energy you get everyday from different things and different people around you in everyday of your life. It could destroy you if you allow it to get into you, and it could help you if you choose it to.
As I began this energy healing therapy, I realized that denial has no place in self-reflection, and so it is up to a person to admit his errors, to embrace them and to move along in a more positive direction.
I choose to do so. I decided to release my self from all the negative energy I have had in me for such a long time and turn it into a positive one.
SIMPLY BY APPRECHIATING IT!!
Appreciating;
(D) For showing me that friends come and go, and it’s not always your fault.
(M) For showing me how horrible it is to be a selfish person
(O) For showing me that hurting someone’s soul is harder than hurting someone’s body
(M) For showing me how bad it is to be a stubborn person
(A) For showing me what it takes to finally forgive someone.
(R) For showing me how the word sorry could end wars between people.
(H) For showing me that it takes two not one
(S) For showing me how hard it is to be a lonely person
Traffic for allowing me to enjoy my favorite radio programs and enjoy more music during the day.
Corruption for showing me how I care about my country
Poverty for making me be a satisfied person
And Last but not least, “LIFE” for showing me that “You Cant Get Everything You Wish For”
The sunrises, and I am released!!
2 comments:
Saed,i dont know what to say. your words really touched me. Thank you so much for your amazing words. Being around good people like you gives me positive energy. you have no idea how it felt seeing you one last time at the air port before leaving knowing that u tried to reach me before you left and couldnt. Its an honer knowing someone like you. thank YOU
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